Eight Gates - Gouge

October 10 Carved in my brain forever as the day I let you in I’ve waited so long for this So I’ll savor every second Why can’t you look me in the eyes Take the blade Push it deep in my chest Inch inch by inch I want to feel the pain I want to feel your venom force it’s way in my veins Shoot to kill That’s how it always feels when you say that these feelings were never real Pray for forgiveness But it’s no use God cannot hear you Heaven refuses the abusive But I’ll take it It’s better than nothing I’m all smiles Even when you hurt me You’ve been wanting to have your fill So take a stab Make it hurt Inch by inch Make me feel real The taste of our past still lingers in my mouth Each time I’m coughing up blood You twist the knife I placed in your hands You’re all take no give So end this suffering When I close my eyes all I see is myself with head buried in my hands repeated in droste effect Your name burned in my head like a bullet to the brain Pull me close One last time