Alfies Home, as read by Cassie Levy

**2020 UPDATE** I made this video 10 years ago when I was 18 years old. At the time, I made videos regularly for my small subscriber base that was predominantly LGBTQ. In case you can’t tell, I am super fuckin’ queer. When I made this video and the jokes attached, I thought the people watching it would understand that I was making it sarcastically. As a queer person, I found and still find it repugnant that some people believe homosexuality is caused by molestation or an absence of some part of the nuclear family dynamic and thus reversible. I thought it would be clear to people watching it that I don’t agree with any of the rhetoric in the book. This video has gotten more popular than any other video I have made, and people who know nothing about me are seeing it and coming to the conclusion that I support pedophilia. That isn’t true. That being said, it is clear to me now as a nearly 30 year old that nothing about this book is funny, and I never should have presented it the way I did. I thought I was making fun of the idiot who wrote the book, but grazed over the fact that what I was saying about the book was unintentionally supporting the ideologies when I should have been condemning them. I now know that impact is more important than intent. Nothing about child abuse is funny, and it should never be made light of in the way I ended up doing in this video. Everything about this book is terrible, harmful, and should never be seen by children. This is the worst book I have ever read in my life, and I have a lot of regrets about how I chose to do this read through. If I could go back in time, I would make my opinions on this more clear, or maybe never read it at all. But I did. Yes, I could take this video down now, but I have mixed feelings about it. When I made this video, I wanted people to know about this book. So they could hate it the way I did, so they could know to look for it and avoid it, so they know that people like this are out there and they should be armed against their shitty arguments. All of those things are still true. This book never should have been written- but it was. Because it was, I want people to know about it. I want people to know what’s in it. I also don’t want to make this video again, not now. I might take this video down. I don’t know yet, I’m still deciding what to do. In the mean time, I want you to know that I don’t agree with it, and I don’t agree with the way I handled this, either.