My reaction Lapis leaving the Earth and Peridot

This pretty much sums up my feelings right about now: SADNESS! Seriously! Steven Universe comes back from hiatus, season 5 gives us more episodes and I get to see my favorite gems again... And THIS is what I get!? LAPIS LEAVING PERIDOT AND PUMPKIN BEHIND WITH THE BARN AND LEAVING THE EARTH!? Its no secret that Lapidot is my favorite ship on the show so seeing this brakes my heart! It hurts more when you think about it! Its like Lapis is throwing away her family just for her survival! So far, Season five is very miserable that feels like its bringing an end to many things! Dewey is no longer Mayor, Lars is still in space, Steven and Connie are in the outs (for now) and now THIS!? ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE US CRY SUGAR!? BECAUSE ITS WORKING! Anyway, I really hope things will turn around because things a certainly changing quickly!