Derealization - Bambi Baker (official video)

Stream on official platforms: Wrote this song when I was 13 in foster care. Literally took foreverrrr to get something I’m satisfied with. It was such a simple idea in my mind but every time we tried to get one of my ideas it turned out impossible. I really wanted to try my best to get something that represented derealization & depersonalisation is some way instead of just what looks pretty, I wanted the outfit to represent feeling like a ghost, or like you’re completely blank and stripped of identity. The background seeming like it doesnt really match is supposed to represent feeling disconnected from your surroundings. It’s still only a lil homemade video by me and my mom, and a little help from my stepdad, but I hope you enjoyed it & thanks for watching 🤍 Also for those who are not aware, I have currently been focusing on music videos due to the fact i have silent reflux (or im debating if I might’ve been misdiagnosed atp) and I’m temporarily not able to sing and havent been able to since snow on my windowsill. But i will release new music as soon as i can sing again🫀 Lyrics: Stood trying to remember what I look like in the mirror What does real life really feel like? I don’t remember what I’m supposed to feel Am I dead? Or am I in a dream? Am I a ghost watching what my life would of been? I can’t feel Times not real Life’s not real I’m not real Nothing is real, ohh, ohh Nothing is real, ohh, ohh (I don’t think I belong on this planet This galaxy, this universe I don’t think I belong at all) What am I here for? What is my purpose? Or am I even here? What can I trust? I don’t know who really exists I don’t remember who anybody is Do I know them? Can they see me? Can they hear me? Can they feel me? Do they know me? Do they know who I am? I can’t feel Times not real Life’s not real I’m not real Nothing is real, ohh, ohh I can’t feel, time’s not real Life’s not real, no I’m not real I’m lost I don’t belong, no I can’t do it, I don’t know who’s real I don’t know what’s real Anymore, ha (No more, no more)