[CoL] 19. Diabarha - Amuck

=== Psychosis === On the border of psychosis, not knowing what is real and what is only my blurred vision; if one man stood outside of self, and looked at him, knowing his soul, then that person - himself - could be a creep. It might apply to many people, and I’m not any kind of special here. Once I heard a comparison that human soul is like a book - closed for other people, and even for the owner, who decides what to speak out loud, only if he/she read that previously. And the person constantly finds out new things in that book, almost everyday. Now there’s a paralysis that invades me because of fear, slowly digging my book, wondering what I don’t know but other people do, and how I may look like for them. Risky question, but maybe I should ask for how widely opened that book is. There’s always one being that know everything from that book. A higher power, that one day is going to read it to us; every single book, for every single soul of us. What then? Depends what’s in th