I Can’t Do This Anymore. . .

I’m sorry guys. . . I’m in a really, REALLY tough spot right now. I am with someone I LOVE & have been with for a year & 5 months now, which is the longest I’ve ever been with anyone, & that means something to me. It means the entire WORLD & MORE to me that he stuck by my side while I was in rehab for FOUR MONTHS. He didn’t cheat on me, he didn’t talk to any other girls in any inappropriate way; he stuck by my side 110% & THEN some. I have BPD, (Borderline Personality Disorder,) this makes me extremely emotional, & EXTREMELY AFRAID of being abandon by ANYONE that I love, no matter who it might be. A friend, a family member, anyone. & this causes me to emotionally detach myself from people & not care about relationships or people as much because I am just convinced that it’s going to end & they’re going to abandon me just like me dad did, just like everyone I ever loved did, so why even try? (That is how my BPD makes me think/feel) But Him STAYING