we’ll take on the world // looking for alaska

↠ Please watch in 720p or 1080p [HD] headphones «  Until I got here, my only friends were the last words of the already dead. Like William McKinley, the third American president to be assassinated. He lived for several days after he was shot. But towards the end, his wife started crying and screaming, « I want to go too ». With his last measure of strength, McKinley turned to his wife and spoke his last words, « We are all going. » And then Alaska had to go, because I screwed up and the Colonel screwed up and we let her go and she slipped through our fingers. We will always live with things done and things left undone that day. If only we could see the endless string of consequences that result from our smallest actions. But we can’t know better until knowing better is useless. I thought at first that she was just dead, just darkness. Just a body being eaten by bugs. I still sometimes think that the afterlife is just something we made up to ease the pain of loss, to make our time in the lab